Rich, I too have lost many fish over the years. It doesn't get any easier over time as all my fish are important to me.
In 2000, when my 12" male Xingu III Black Pike Cichlid of an adult pair died from knocking down his heavy rock cave on himself, I was so upset that I gave away all of my fish; this was the only pair in the US back then. It took a few years before I started keeping fish again.
I'll never give up.